From Atheist to Believer in Jesus Christ
I prepared my testimony because Jesus says if you acknowledge me before men I will acknowledge you before my father who is in heaven.
Born into an upper middle class family in the suburbs of Washington, DC, I was one of four boys, my father was an attorney, and my mother a homemaker.
From an early age, the thought of God was wiped from my mind by science school teachers and my father. We were taught that the Bible is a book of fairy tales written by fallible men over the span of hundreds of years, and that it was fraught with contradictions and untruths.
The accepted theory is that life started from a Big Bang, then over the span of billions of years, all forms of life developed, and evolved.
The science of evolution supposedly proved this big bang theory and disproved the Bible, and anyone who believes the Bible, which states in Genisis 1 that God created the heavens and the earth, we were told, was a fool.
Although the Bible states “the way of man is not in himself” my earthly father taught me that man is capable of living life on his merit alone, and that faith in God was a weakness.
The plan was, rather than to seek God, just gain a good education, and focus on business and making money. I was taught that self hypnosis is the key to happiness. The moral compass I was given was appealing. Now I can be my own God, and do whatever I want as long as I don’t hurt anybody. Everything in moderation was my basic foundation for living.
As a young school child, I remember often seeking attention and disturbing class. Bored, and angry, I often rebelled against authority. I was good at sports , and for the most part, life was enjoyable, and it wasn’t until later in my teen years that I started to go off the rails.
I remember drinking a beer after a baseball game at 13 yrs of age, and I loved it! From that day forward, I began drinking as often as I could and experimenting with drugs as well. When my parents split up at around the age of 15, I moved in with my father and his young girlfriend. I was drinking beer and smoking pot every day, then dropped out of school in 10th grade, and moved out on my own right after my 17th birthday.
Renting an $80 month attic room in a group house and working for $3.30 hr as a stock boy at a shoe store, the next 10 years were a blur from drugs and alcohol, and I don’t remember much. I played guitar and sang in the bars, and changed jobs often.
My earliest thought of God came in my twenties when traveling across country and visiting my Christian uncle Keith in Oklahoma. I remember drinking a six pack of beer, then attending a bible study. My uncle and several others laid hands and prayed over me in the name of Jesus, then next day I was given a hundred dollar bill and hit the road. I was miserable and knew whatever I was doing wasn’t working and I needed help.
The memory of this event never left me, and opened the door for me to consider that maybe there is a God. However, my father and other family members considered my uncle to be crazy and ignorant, so I didn’t know what to believe. In hindsight, I know this was a pivotal moment for me, and the seed was planted, but I had no immediate transformation.
Years later, while caught up in alcohol and drug addiction, I found myself led to an AA meeting by a friend. In AA I was taught that we need a higher power to recover, and most choose to call this higher power God.
In AA I saw many people getting well who had a faith in God, so gradually I started believing and praying to God. I soon met my wife, and later we had two children, and we are still married to this day!
Although I experienced some periods of sobriety and faith in God, often I still returned to drinking and my self will. It wasn’t until 1998, that I finally hit bottom, almost losing my wife, family and business. I asked God for help, entered recovery once again, and God removed my compulsion to drink alcohol and use drugs. I have never had a drink or drug since.
Many years later in 2018, a man who was like a father to me, died, and I was devastated. Desiring a deeper understanding of God, I picked up the Bible and started studying. I copied down my favorite scriptures and memorized them, and my faith and understanding grew.
Now convinced that, even though the Bible was written by men, it is the inspired Word of God, profitable for doctrine, reproof, correction, and instruction in righteousness. The Word of God is living and powerful, sharper than a two edged sword, and able to make us wise for salvation through faith in Christ Jesus our Lord.
It became clear to me that I was a sinner in need of the blood of Christ, and the Holy Spirit. I broke Gods laws, but Jesus paid the fine, and if I repent and believe, I can become a new creature in Christ, and God can grant me everlasting life! I learned that Jesus is the only way, the truth and the life and nobody comes to the father except through Him.
God desires that everyman comes to the knowledge of the truth, that there is one God, and one mediator between God and man, the man Christ Jesus, who gave himself a ransom for all.
We are called to repent of our sins and be baptized in the name of Jesus Christ for the remission of sin, so I went to a local church and was baptized in the name of Jesus.
God’s Word instructs us to preach the gospel throughout the earth to every creature, and God raised us up so that He could show His power in us, and His name be declared in all the earth.
Rather than be conformed to the world, God calls us to be transformed by the renewing of our mind, and every high thing that exalts itself against the knowledge of Christ be brought into captivity to the of obedience Christ.
With the short time I have left on this earth, I desire to live everyday for Jesus Christ with the help of the power of the Holy Spirit.
I’ve been very blessed to have a mother that became a believer later in life who prayed for me often, and she was very instrumental in helping me come to the Lord. We have a very special relationship to this day, and enjoy encouraging each other in our daily walk with Christ.
God has also blessed me with a wonderful wife, who’s been by my side all these years, who gave me two beautiful children that I love with all my heart and soul. I am truly a very wealthy man. Praise the Lord!